I have a bit to catch up on…
The fast is over now, and I’m working on getting back to normal. The last couple days of the fast were physically rough—really rough. My lower back ached so badly that no position felt comfortable, and my Restless Leg Syndrome flared up. Without potassium, my legs twitched endlessly, and my feet were ice-cold no matter what I did.
Friday night, I didn’t fall asleep until 2:30 a.m.—Saturday was even worse. 4 a.m. and I was still awake, exhausted but restless. Several times, I considered moving downstairs or into the spare room, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that doing so would leave me vulnerable. To what, I don’t know—but I didn’t want to find out.
By Sunday, I finally juiced and got some nutrients back in my system. That night, I slept like a baby. Hallelujah!
I had hoped the Lord would give us clear direction on whether to put in our 30-day notice—but He didn’t. So, we didn’t.
Now, I’m asking Him for faith and trust because once the money in our bank account is gone… well, that’s it. No safety net. No backup plan.
But God is my provider. He has promised to take care of us. His words are true and faithful.
- God is who He says He is.
- He will do what He says He will do.
- I am who He says I am.
- I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.
- The Word is alive and active in me.
I choose to stand on that.
Last Sunday, we went to Hope for P’s baptism. It was powerful—probably the most powerful baptism I’ve witnessed. And yet… I didn’t cry.
I can’t remember a baptism where I didn’t cry. It’s always been an overwhelming, holy moment. But this time, I felt disconnected—like I was watching something amazing but couldn’t fully feel it.
Why? I don’t know. Even today, the feeling lingers.
But at least the trip to Hope brought something good. I reconnected with so many people I hadn’t seen in a while, and that was refreshing.
After the service, we had lunch at A & C’s and spent more time in fellowship. Then, on Saturday night, we gathered for House Church, where we decided to go through the Kingdom Guides together as a group. Everyone seemed excited about it! April 12th—we begin.
Sunday, we saw SS at church and shared our concerns about giving our 30-day notice. I had been praying that God would confirm that timeframe for us.
But SS? He was so laid back about it. He didn’t give us a direct answer, but he made it clear that he would work with us on whatever God was leading us to do. That freed me in a way I didn’t expect. Thank you, Lord.
Right now, my focus is on praying for Tom. I want God to speak clearly to him as the leader of our home, to direct our next steps.
Deep down, I keep feeling like we’re supposed to sell or give away everything—to be free, mobile, unburdened. But that’s a huge step, and I need Tom to hear it too, if that’s truly what God wants.
Or maybe I’m wrong. Maybe it’s just something I think we should do.
I need God to confirm it to Tom directly. Whatever God tells him, I’ll support and follow.
Lord, You are faithful. You are our provider, our guide, our source of wisdom. Help us seek first Your Kingdom, to hear Your voice clearly, and to trust You with our next steps. I lay down my crowns at Your feet—make me the servant You need me to be. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
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