I am now on day six of my fast, and honestly, nothing I expected to happen has happened.
I’ve been seeking God, asking for direction—especially regarding our living situation. But every day, I feel like I’m falling short.
I’ve stripped away distractions and spent my time:
Listening to the Word on CD
Reading Scripture online
Watching the Matthew movie
Studying
Praying & interceding
Worshiping and meditating on His Word
Yet, I keep feeling like I should be doing more.
- When I try to be still, I feel like I should be reading more.
- When I read more, I feel like I should be listening more.
- When I listen more, I wonder if I should be just waiting in silence.
It’s a frustrating cycle, and the deeper issue is this: I don’t feel like I’m truly connecting with Him the way I hoped I would.
But even though I’m not getting the answers I thought I would, I think I’m getting answers to questions I didn’t even realize I was asking.
Tom and I have been going through Jimmy Evans’ book, “Freedom from Your Past”, and I thought I had already dealt with all the major emotional wounds I needed to. But as we read, I feel like there’s still more—more to heal, more to uncover.
I’ve had three powerful dreams now, each one increasing in intensity and significance. I know God is speaking—I just don’t fully understand what He’s saying yet.
Lord, please continue to guide and direct my steps as I seek You. Reveal what You want me to see and help me to rest in Your timing. In Jesus’ name, Amen.
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