Yesterday was a good day—a full day spent with A. Even though I was tired from lack of sleep, the time together was well spent.
Before bed, I prayed my now-usual prayer: “God, wake me up if the dream is really important… but if not, I could use a good night’s sleep!”
This time, I slept straight through. And when I woke up, I felt truly rested.
As I lay in bed, reflecting on everything God has been doing in my heart lately, I sensed something very clear: He was wiping my life’s blackboard completely clean. It was as if He were saying, “Let’s start over. Let Me order your steps.”
Everything I thought was important—all of my own ideas, plans, and priorities—He had thrown out. And in their place, He was redefining what truly mattered.
We’ve been reading a book called Pagan Christianity, and it has been eye-opening. The more I learn, the more I realize that so much of what happens in organized church services today is not what God originally intended for His people. And now… I’m struggling.
It’s becoming harder and harder to sit through a church service without seeing the layers of man-made traditions woven into everything. It feels like my eyes have been opened, and I can’t unsee it.
This morning, I sent CB my journal from the past few days to keep her updated on what God has been doing. She responded with something interesting—she mentioned that JB had interpreted AB’s dream and said I should call her when I had time. So later, when I had a free moment, I did.
Our conversation naturally drifted back to the “international” theme that has been coming up over and over. CB shared that God had been laying heavily on her heart the issue of child prostitution in Thailand.
She felt strongly that the children weren’t the real issue—the real problem was the customers. Since fighting against that kind of darkness has been our shared passion, she wondered… Could God be calling us to go there?
Then she told me something else. God had given her specific fasting dates for this year—and they were the three days leading up to mine.
She didn’t know why at first, only that she was to do a “pre-fast” and pray for an undisclosed individual. She didn’t even know who that person was… until I sent her my email.
It’s becoming clearer that this fast is more than just a personal act of obedience—it’s a time where I believe God will reveal more of His plans. I don’t know exactly what those plans look like yet… but I’m ready to listen.
After our call, I felt a nudge from the Lord to revisit an old dream. It had been sitting in my journal for a couple of years, and at the time, JB had interpreted it. For the past few days, I had been feeling prompted to read it again, so today, I finally did. And I was amazed.
(2022 Insert—Linda: I decided to leave the dream and interpretation out, since it was too long and didn’t add much to this story.)
Even though it was an old dream, it felt so relevant to everything happening in my life now. The interpretation fit—especially the part about international missions.
It seemed like confirmation that what God has been speaking through these recent dreams is leading somewhere real. I still don’t know exactly what it all means, but I trust that in His perfect timing, He will put all the pieces together. But one thing is for sure… I can’t shake the feeling that I should be applying for my passport.
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