Today wasn’t much better than last night—Tom and I were still at each other’s throats all morning. Frustrated and drained, I knew I needed a shift in my attitude. I asked Tom to lead us in worship, praying that God would change my heart.
And He showed up. I was broken.
I had been feeling so exhausted, completely “done,” crying out to God for help. I told Him, “I can’t keep going like this—working all these hours and trying to do ministry too.” Within seconds, He replayed in my mind the word He had given my friend and reminded me:
“I have already told you what you need to do.”
I immediately thought about why I hadn't quit my job yet—money and benefits. But then God responded:
- Me: “But I’m the only income.”
- God: “I am your provider.”
- Me: “But I’m the only one with health benefits!”
- God: “I am your healer.”
Then I heard one clear word: “GO.”
At that moment, I was overwhelmed with relief, release, freedom, and joy. All I could do was cry! It felt like a massive weight had lifted off my shoulders.
To step out in faith, to trust my Lord and Savior fully, and to KNOW that He will provide—WOW.
A Timely Confirmation
Right after this powerful prayer time, I quickly checked my emails and saw a message from a woman in my Womanade group:
Hello Amiga Linda,
Linda, you know Linda means "pretty, beautiful" in Spanish. And you are…Always your Amiga, M
The timing struck me—just days after my friend’s husband had told me something similar. Wow, Lord. Thank You!
Tension and Restoration
Even after my breakthrough, Tom and I continued to struggle. We were still bickering, and about an hour before our friends arrived for a birthday dinner, Tom lost it. He threw his water bottle on the floor and stormed out.
Earlier, I had acknowledged my own attitude and apologized, but I also told him, “There’s something deeper going on with you, and I’m not going to take responsibility for what isn’t mine.”
When he returned, he apologized and finally opened up.
He confessed that he felt all his old insecurities resurfacing—the fear that if everything went to hell in a handbasket, everyone would blame him. He felt like a failure again, like nothing he did was right, like everyone was watching him, judging him.
But in that moment, the anger and tension broke. We were restored before our guests arrived.
We shared our big news with them, and they prayed over us and supported us in our crazy leap of faith. 🥰 We are so blessed to have such good friends!
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